It has taken me a long time to understand why this quote is so powerful. I've always tried to control who I am, to appear strong and put together while falling to pieces inside but I've never really understood who I was, who I am and who I will always be, a person who struggles with days where getting out of bed seems out of reach, a person who emotionally disintegrates if my day sometimes gets skewed around, the feeling of confusion, discombobulation and the unease it can cause, it always makes me feel less of a person, but now I get it, it's OK not to feel OK and the burden is not something I should carry.
I learned at a very young age the meaning of this quote, that sense of being a round peg in a square hole, I fit in, in a "I'm there sort of way" but never in the sense of being comfortable, I didn't behaviour like them, want to interact like them, talk, walk or look like them. I was the portly kid with ginger hair who read books and just let the day pass me by. Did I ever feel lonely not sure I just understood that I did not fit in and maybe I did feel lonely on some level but I accepted it as normal. Well normal for me.
